Showing posts with label desire. Show all posts
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30/09/2022

"It’s Not Such a Sin Anymore To Be a Girl": Harley Weir : 4 Talks About Her Recent Work

 



In an excerpt from Plaster Magazine, Harley Weir talks about her love of Nobuyoshi Araki and the Pre-Raphaelites, and that time she nearly interned for a female pornographer
 
This excerpt is taken from the fifth issue of Plaster Magazine.
 
The first time I spoke with Harley Weir on the phone, she had just been caught in a giant hailstorm. It was the middle of July, and she was in awe of the size of the hailstones. Eager for me to see, she picked a few off the ground and took a quick iPhone photo of her clutching a collection of them. However, what struck me from the photo she sent to me wasn’t the hugeness of the golfball-sized hail, but how beautiful the image was. I could not figure out how she had managed to take something so simple and turn it into something so ethereal, so recognisably her, when the photos most people take on an iPhone look as if they have been captured on a drunken night out.
 
But, then again, she is one of the world’s most in-demand photographers, and that is what great photographers do: whether they are equipped with the best camera or just an iPhone, they are capable of translating their perspective of the world through an image. Harley has made a career that people twice her age couldn’t dream of, all because of her unique viewpoint of the world. She brings to life the intimacy of her subject, whether it is a giant piece of hail or an editorial for a leading fashion publication.



 
Today, I find Harley in her newly-purchased, Grade II-listed, 19th-century converted church in Faversham. The church has been converted into a beautiful open-plan house, with a marble kitchen, a long wooden dining table, and two large sofas which she proudly announces were purchased from eBay. There is no bed, but she points to where the altar should be and tells us that the bed is to go there. Even in her personal space, everything is perfectly curated, as if on the set for one of her shoots. A master behind the camera, she has agreed to be photographed for Plaster – something she seldom allows. One could sense her initial unease at being placed in front of the camera. However, any initial shyness evaporated as she began to feel more and more at ease, even, at one point, starting to direct the photographer to where the best place was to shoot, and calling him out for being too close. Then, once the shoot was over, it was my turn to listen as we sat down to talk.
 
Milo Astaire: Could you tell me about your upbringing? Where did you grow up?
 
Harley Weir: I grew up in deep south-west London. My parents gave me a lot of freedom growing up, mostly due to them being bohemian types but also because they worked hard and didn’t have much time to fuss. They both worked in the toy industry. My mum worked for Sindy doll. She used to mock up the dolls for the product design, paint their eyes, root the hair, and make tiny clothes for them.
 
MA: I imagine having creative parents inspired you to look at things slightly differently?
 
HW: I’ve been lucky to have always had art available to me. I remember the first time I saw what I thought was great art: it was a postcard up in my uncle’s houseboat of Hylas and the Nymphs. I remember being besotted by the image of the water nymphs gently dragging Hylas into this pond. It was calm but also very sinister. It’s very Pre-Raphaelite, and that was probably the first art object that I remember I found really, really captivating.
 
MA: Now that you mention the Pre-Raphaelites, I can see their distinct visual language in your photographic work, especially the models you use.
 
HW: Yeah, the influence is definitely always there. I think that’s probably partly due to where I grew up. It was very suburban, leafy, and full of soft nature like the images depicted in those Pre-Raphaelite paintings. People tell me I look a bit Pre-Raphaelite. Maybe that’s also why I connect to it, that very old-fashioned stereotype of beauty, Botticelli’s Venus etc, it’s an interesting starting point for commenting on current beauty trends.
 
MA: What else has influenced you?
 
HW: The Spice Girls were a great influence on my taste … unfortunately! I remember I used to collect Spice Girls posters, and I hid them in a secret closet. The Spice Girls were a big thing for young girls at the time. The first female heroes of my generation. It felt like a very strong movement, but looking back, maybe it wasn’t the best message for the youth of the time.
 
MA: You studied at Central Saint Martins?
 
HW: Yes, I studied fine art, but I would love to return and do it again. At the time, I was very possessed by the idea of being an independent woman, so I decided to begin working while I was there. I had a part-time job at a pub. Then I started working as a fashion photographer to pay for the course, which ultimately took up all of my time. It was actually an accident that I ended up becoming a photographer. Someone just asked me if I wanted to do a fashion shoot because I used to post my pictures online.
 
MA: Where did you post the pictures?
 
HW: Flickr.
 
MA: Oh … we are going way back! Does Flickr still exist?
 
HW: I think it does, but I don’t really know what it’s for. I don’t know who is using it. Someone must be! Anyway, someone saw my work on Flickr when I was 17 and asked me to do a fashion shoot, and I was like, ‘Yeah!’, and they told me they only had a budget of £300 and I was like, ‘Oh my God, I’ll do anything for that much money!’
 
MA: Did you pocket the budget?
 
HW: Of course! I spent £5 on a train ticket and £20 on film and pocketed the rest.
 
MA: Was there a lightbulb moment when you thought, ‘I can make a career out of taking these photographs’?
 
HW: I think I was so busy that I didn’t really have a chance to realise what I was up to, but I was really grateful.
 
MA: Was there anything in your work that you felt you wanted to explore or say when you were starting out?
 
HW: I think fashion photography can be a really interesting way of understanding the woman. I was intrigued and excited about learning about female desire through my work. In the beginning, when I first started, I primarily took photographs of guys. Most of my projects consisted of photographing men in archetypal female situations, men as Ophelia or Venus for example.
 
MA: What photographers’ work were you looking at during that time?
 
HW: Araki. I used to love Sally Mann and Peter Beard. Beard was my first love. My dad would read his books to me when I was a kid. I found it strange that fashion from the outside was such a female-looking world, yet, so few women were behind the camera.
 
I really wanted to intern for a female pornographer at the time and was really excited about that, but it didn’t happen. On her website, she claimed to be the only female porn director in the UK and I thought ‘how can that be?’ I was interested in the idea of understanding my desires because there is definitely a point where, as a girl, you look around, and you realise everything you’ve ever read was written by a man, or every porno you’ve ever watched was directed by a man, every film ... and you are like, ‘Oh shit, what do I desire? How can I know what I desire if everything I’ve ever looked at has been made by a guy anyway?’ So I think it was an interesting time in fashion for me to do my thing and figure out what I desired and if I could ever know what that was or is.
 
Harley Weir on Pornography, Female Desire and the Spice Girls. By Milo Astaire. Another Magazine, September 23, 2022.




The photographer has published her first ever self-portrait series – here, she discusses the otherworldly allure of sex dolls, being enlightened by porn, and why she chose to turn the camera on herself.
 
Harley Weir has been on Instagram for around a decade – but she’s never posted a selfie before now. “I just never wanted people to judge me before they judge my work,” she says, explaining the aversion to sharing photos of herself over the phone from New York, where she’s recovered from jetlag just in time for the start of fashion week. “I’m not necessarily a purist but I wanted my work to speak for itself, and not for my image to speak for itself.” In her new Beauty Papers photobook, however, the two are unavoidably intertwined, as the photographer turns the camera on herself for the first time.
 
Of course, flicking through a book from one of fashion’s foremost photographers – whose personal work often exists at the borderlines of the sensual and the grotesque – is a far cry from scrolling down your social media feeds. For one, Weir herself is often hidden behind a hyperreal rubber mask, an uncanny second skin, or layers of make-up that achieve a similar effect, smoothing out her features to a Barbie-like sheen. In other images, meanwhile, sex dolls take her place in front of the camera, dead-eyed or dripping with fake tears (the book itself is dedicated to “all the dolls in the world”).
 
These contrasting images – the real versus the fake, the comic versus the erotic, “pantomime feminine” forms versus “real” bodies with fat rolls and loose tampon strings – are all a part of modern-day beauty, explains Weir. To illustrate the point she sends a quote over text, by the late French philosopher George Batailles: “I believe that truth has only one face: that of a violent contradiction.”
 
“It’s very confusing,” Weir continues. “Because at once I don’t agree with the oversexualisation, the overbeautification, the artificial elements of current day beauty, but I still follow that trend in a way. If you go on social media a lot, it’s very hard to move away from those wants and desires.” You only have to scroll down Instagram a few minutes, she adds, and you’ll come across hundreds of women (and increasingly men) whose appearances are altered in Photoshop or via cosmetic surgeries – sculpting the homogenised look that Jia Tolentino dubbed “Instagram face” back in 2019, with figures such as Kim Kardashian as the blueprint. Even if you recognise the idealised veneer, it’s hard not to compare yourself against this constant stream of images.
 





“Everyone wants to be desired,” says Weir. “So it’s a difficult one: you don’t want to be a part of something that you think is not quite right, yet you don’t want to get left behind. Especially working in the fashion industry, you’re inundated with images of beautiful people all the time. It’s a catch-22.”
 
Is perfection actually that sexy, though? This question is asked throughout Weir’s latest project, where airbrushed skin takes on an eery quality, and romance is found in upside-down kisses, bodies and faces smeared with glitter and grime. “I think there’s something in the grotesque,” she says, “and something in uniqueness.” Even for her, though, this realisation took time, arriving too late to stop her from removing a red, star-shaped birthmark on her face aged 16. “I thought I was absolute freak. I just wanted to look like everyone else.”
 
Watching porn was partly responsible for broadening Weir’s conception of what a body could look like, and for shaping her acceptance of her own body. “If you look in the right places for porn, you can see anything,” she says. “It personally made me feel more normal, because I saw all the weird things I thought I was.”
 
As in Father, the 2019 photo book that she billed as an exploration and worship of the male body, this new photo book takes a similar approach, showing us sides to sexuality that rarely break through to the mainstream. On the flipside, of course, porn can also be misleading, teaching men that women should look and act a certain way – these ideals are also echoed, in the pliant bodies and provocative angles of Weir’s sex doll images, or in her own contorted poses.
 
Over the past few years, Harley Weir has worked with some of the biggest names in fashion, film, and music. Just last week, Pamela Anderson, Doja Cat, Kyle MacLachlan, and more starred in the campaign she shot for Marc Jacobs’ AW22 Heaven collection. In a crossover with the Beauty Papers publication, Charli XCX posed with kitchen knives sticking out of her back. Taking her turn in front of the lens, though, the photographer jumped in at the deep end.




 
After several tries at shooting a photo where she hangs upside down, she says: “My eye actually burst, and then I vomited.” Another time, the thick rubber skin-suit she wore gave her a panic attack. Though she’s always been “quite sensitive” toward people’s needs on set, she says that this shed a new light on the physical challenges models face, and made her more grateful. “Even just standing upright, in a pair of extremely painful shoes and really uncomfortable clothes, is actually quite a feat.”
 
At the same time, switching between the roles of director and model – and delegating many of the actual photographs to assistants, make-up artists, and anyone who could pick up a camera – gave Weir a new sense of freedom. “I didn’t have to feel guilty,” she says. “If you’re a photographer, you’re always asking something of someone, which can feel dirty and sometimes quite grim afterwards. That transaction can feel weird.” Only having to worry about what she was feeling allowed her to push further, and dig deeper into stranger forms of beauty that might otherwise have been inaccessible. “I could be more free,” she says, “without having to worry about hurting someone’s identity. It was just mine that was there to play with.”
 
Harley Weir Beauty Papers is published by Beauty Papers and distributed by IDEA. Take a closer look in the gallery above.

Harley Weir’s uncanny nudes explore beauty in the age of Instagram. By Thom Waite. Dazed, September 13, 2022. 





 
Harley Weir Beauty Papers with Charlotte Cotton. Idea








As her new solo show Sins of a Daughter opens in London, Harley Weir talks about womanhood, vaginas and the “painterly” qualities of cum.
 
“There’s no designer vagina,” says London-based photographer Harley Weir, who is discussing a series of intimate images in her new solo exhibition, Sins of a Daughter, at Hannah Barry Gallery in Peckham. “They all look so different and they’re all beautiful in different ways.” Gathering together 30 of her photographs old and new – some of which have been abstracted and collaged over with household products and bodily fluids like cum, spit, pee and blood – these frenetic, highly emotional images draw on themes of inherited family trauma, sexuality, shame, motherhood and the knotty topic of desire.
 
Weir is responsible for era-defining fashion images that include Young Thug in a Molly Goddard dress for Dazed, or Klara Kristin’s much-debated ‘up-skirted’ Calvin Klein campaign shot, but this exhibition shows an artist running amok, unfettered by budgets and collaboration. “It’s difficult when you’re working with people,” she explains. “In my personal work, I can get closer to the truth.”
 
Dear mother – a darkly-lit image of a woman with her legs splayed apart – recalls Gustave Courbet’s controversial 1886 painting L'Origine du monde, but Weir zooms in further, giving an almost microscopic view of the vulva. These vagina pictures hang next to images of a lactating nipple and a breastfeeding baby, throwing the very notion of the Madonna-Whore complex into disarray. Elsewhere, pop culture icons like Avril Lavigne and Kylie Jenner appear subtly in the work; “[they’re] the girls of this generation,” says Weir, citing the dulling effect of constantly being on social media. “There is beauty in everything, and everyone does have a beautiful side and a grotesque side,” she says. “We only see that one side, that beautiful side – especially with social media.”
 
Here, Weir talks about the line between pornography and art, why we must learn to love our vaginas, and the reality of working in the fashion and art industries as a woman.
 
Violet Conroy: How did the idea for the show come about?
 
Harley Weir: I was thinking about bloodlines, the inherited weight of gender, things that get passed down from your family like trauma, illnesses, or general upbringing. The title Sins of a Daughter comes from the saying ‘sins of the father’, which stems back to a previous book I made called Father, which was a series of male nudes exploring the female gaze and desire.
 
VC: Do you think of yourself as a fashion photographer first and an artist second, or is there no distinction between the two?
 
HW: I dislike labels, they hold us back from doing what we want. I feel very fluid, but there’s not really a good definition for such things. I’m comfortable though with whatever people want to call me at this point.
 




VC: Do you approach the two modes of working in the same way? Or does your personal work allow you to tackle themes that maybe your fashion stuff doesn’t?
 
HW: It’s always a huge collaboration when you’re doing a fashion project. There are hundreds of people on set – you’re not alone. With fashion, it doesn’t really feel [like it’s] my own, because I wouldn’t necessarily share my inner thoughts with people I don’t know very well.
 
My personal work feels quite different. Often it’s abstract and without people, because I don’t feel 100 per cent that anything is fully mine if it’s a picture of someone else – that’s a collaboration. It’s difficult when you’re working with people; it’s important to respect them. I don’t want to make anyone feel bad about the way they look in an image, [but] that’s not the truth. In my personal work, I can get closer to the truth.
 
VC: Some of the pieces seem to tackle sexuality and shame. Has making these images allowed you to work through your thoughts about these things?
 
HW: Yes, it has. I overlay or paste on a lot of the images; they’re hardly visible in the finals, and are almost like secret, cathartic symbols of such thinking. I almost find it like art therapy. There’s alchemy in the darkroom, it’s completely black and I’m experimenting with waste products, whether it’s bodily fluids or wasted beauty products I take from my bathroom cabinet. It’s very physical in the dark, and there can be a real abstract feeling. When you have no other senses, your mind can really unravel. I get really heightened emotions when I’m in there.
 
We have so much stimulation constantly, social media is always in our faces. We’ve always got our phone to pacify ourselves. When you’re completely in the dark, your mind has time to run wild. I feel like a lot of thoughts and things like that will come out when I’m doing those things, and I think they really look like that feeling when I see the final result afterwards.




 
VC: What inspired you to use bodily fluids?
 
HW: It felt quite natural to start experimenting. Originally, I wanted to see what cum looked like on photo paper if it was left. That was the first one I did, when I made the book Father. I was trying to make a cover for the book, and I wanted it to be bodily fluids, then I put it into the processor and I realised it stained it in a very painterly way.
 
VC: What about the vagina images?
 
HW: When I looked back at the vagina images, I thought, ‘Oh god, how expected of me to do vaginas again!’ But I still think that we don’t see them enough, because they’re so internal. As a girl you must use a mirror to even look at your own. We see the beautiful mound in art and plastered everywhere – but [the] open [part] is still quite unseen. I remember having to turn to porn when I was a kid to really see one.
 
When I took those images, it had a big effect on me because I’d never seen anyone’s vagina properly before. It was quite important for me to do that. I’m so thankful for the girls that allowed me to do it because it was really eye-opening and it made me realise that everyone is so different. There’s no designer vagina, we’re all so different and they’re all beautiful in different ways. And we must learn to love them.
 




VC: Do you think there’s a world in which pictures of vaginas, like the ones you took, will not be read as pornographic by people?
 
HW: It’s tricky. A lot of the girls who came to have their picture taken were very well-groomed, and I had hoped they might be a bit more realistic. I did wonder, ‘Oh, are these vaginas too beautiful?’ because I don’t want to give people the wrong impression. These people knew they were going to have photos taken of their vagina, so a lot of them were waxed or shaved, which could give them a more porno feeling.
 
VC: I loved the vagina picture with Avril Lavigne’s face superimposed on top.
 
HW: [Laughs.]. My first assistant Alexa was helping me late to print those, and we were looking through old images to overlay with the vaginas, and she was like, ‘How about Avril?’ I was like, ‘Hell yes!’.
 
VC: You’ve got these pop culture icons in the work, like Avril Lavigne and Kylie Jenner – what compelled you to include them?
 
HW: I go through old images I’ve collected, weekly newspapers, and make little piles with images that sing to me at the time, and those happened to be in there. I feel like they [Lavigne and Jenner] are the girls of this generation, I see their faces so often they are almost like a motif. It’s subconscious almost, but there’s also a fair amount of intent in there. Since I do it all in the dark and don’t use any glue, what sticks is almost like a tarot card reading.
 
VC: A lot of the work is about motherhood, with the breastfeeding images. What about this concept interests you?
 
HW: I mixed those images on the wall with images of vaginas because I was thinking of the idea of function, and those parts being functional rather than sexual. I thought, ‘Oh gosh, is someone going to feel uncomfortable that a vagina is next to an image of a breastfeeding boob,’ but I thought: no, it makes perfect sense. That’s what they were created for. We shouldn’t even really have to think about that, but we do.




 
VC: Is beauty something you’re still looking for in your work?
 
HW: Beauty, for me, is what draws people to an image and helps them listen. I would love for things to be less beautiful, but when you’re working with people it’s really hard. If you’re photographing people, it’s important to make them feel comfortable, or at least I think so. I love the work of photographers who really show the truth in all its grotesqueness, and I feel like I hold back from that because I care about the people that I photograph. I don’t want them to be disappointed or feel ugly.
 
If it was a better world, we wouldn’t mind about those things. There is beauty in everything, and everyone does have a beautiful side and a grotesque side. We only see that one side, that beautiful side – especially with social media. It’s complicated. Beauty is a big topic.
 
VC: What’s it like being a woman in the fashion and art industries now, and has it changed since you first started out as a photographer?
 
HW: It’s changed a lot. I definitely felt very embarrassed about being a girl when I was younger. I feel very comfortable being a girl now. I felt like I was disrespected, or that people didn’t or wouldn’t give me the respect I wanted as a girl sometimes. I feel like it’s changed a lot in a good way, and that’s really exciting.
 
“It’s Like Art Therapy”: Harley Weir on Her Provocative New Exhibition. By Violet Conroy. Another Magazine, April 21, 2022. 






Fashion photographer Harley Weir first got a hold of a camera when she was eight years-old. “My mum used to give me a disposable camera to take with me on school trips. I loved using it,” she tells me. “I think the first pictures I took were of some pigs that were having sex at a farm we visited. I have a vivid memory of it. The disposable was like my social media then.”
 
If you haven’t heard of Weir, you’ve at least seen her work. The Southwest London native has lensed the likes of Young Thug, Bjork, and Rihanna for Dazed, Greta Thunberg’s famous i-D cover, Bella Hadid for LOVE, and Pharrell for Humanrace. That’s just a selection of the 30 year-old photographer’s heavy-hitting portfolio; Jacquemus, Helmut Lang, Charlotte Knowles, Stella McCartney, and Calvin Klein have also enrolled her to snap their campaigns, and most recently, Gucci x Balenciaga.
 
Sins of a daughter, which opened on April 9 at London’s Hannah Barry Gallery, is Weir’s first solo exhibition since the Covid-19 outbreak. “It’s interesting to go back into that mindset of where I was two and a half years ago and revisit those feelings and thoughts,” she says. It’s nearing 10 o’clock at night for Weir, who’s busy with the finishing touches of her show ahead of its opening. “I’ve been doing last minute printing, some things didn’t fit into frames properly, the usual. So manic.”
 
Showing almost 30 new collages and archival images, Sins of a daughter is a revealing look into Weir’s most intimate and private photographic experiments. The featured archive dates back to 2008, when teenager Weir first started taking photos of her friends and sisters. “They’re quite abstract images. Some of them come from a previous project called Father, a book I made with a series of male nudes. There’s also a series of vaginas in the show, very close up and personal, quite intense. It was very much about my desire as a woman, like, ‘What do I desire?’ I wanted to figure that out, so a lot of it is coming from that angle.”
 
In a late night interview, the artist walks us through her creation process, her obsession with the body, and what she does want as a woman, for now.
 
What can we expect to see from Sins of a daughter?
 
HW : Photographic collages. They were made originally by experimenting with body fluids. I put the fluids on photo paper, which is then left to cook. It changes the chemistry of the paper and brings out certain colors or removes things, darkens things, almost like a form of painting, but with alchemy. Strangely, everything I have used from then on is a waste product of something. I use a lot of outdated beauty products or health foods, for example. Ingredients are things like perfumes, contact lens solution, ingrown hair solution, moringa powder, spirulina.
 
When you say body fluids, what kind do you mean exactly?
 
HW : Spit, pee, cum, blood. But they go through processes and become properly cleaned and fixed so only the marks remain. I didn’t use any body fluid since lockdown because it felt weird, since everyone was hyper aware of cleanliness and things like that. It changed the direction a little bit, and I ended up working with things like super foods, which is interesting because they do have a super odd effect on the paper. It feels very prehistoric experimenting with alchemy in the way that I do. like when people were exploring the natural world for ways of doing things, like octopus ink for writing. Usually I will start with an analogue image or collage of different images on the same photo paper. I do it all in the dark, so I don’t know exactly what I’m doing. Very much like a witch [doing] a ritual in the dark with these potions.




 
What’s the meaning behind the show’s name?
 
HW : It’s from the common saying, “sins of a father.” In this case, I think about the idea of inherited sins, of what has been passed down through my gender from history. In a personal sense, thinking about what you inherit from your parents and what they feed down to your bloodline, what they gave you and what you carry, past traumas and sins. When I say sins, you could put it another way and say “history.” Not necessarily bad things.
 
Photography is very much collaborative, whereas art – especially your method of creation – seems more personal.
 
HW :  I don’t think an image necessarily belongs to me if there’s someone else in it. My personal work is abstract, without people, because it feels wholly mine. With other work – especially my fashion work – it’s always a collaboration. There are hundreds of people on set. How much of yourself are you willing to show and share with strangers? Personally? Not so much.
 
You go from photographing mega celebrities, then regular people on the street. How do you bring out that intimacy from strangers?
 
HW : I love to photograph people who love to be photographed. When I was younger, I was sometimes photographing people that really didn’t like to be photographed, and the exchange was very awkward and bizarre. I like to go with the flow, with the feeling, and if someone wants to be nude, then it happens.
 



 
A lot of your work seems to focus on the human form, especially the female body. What’s your fascination with that?
 
HW : As a woman, every film you watch as a child – less so now – but when I was younger, it was likely directed by a guy and the woman is likely, usually a sassy whore. Women are very sexualized. Their bodies are always on show, and they’re a love interest for a guy. Having that focus on the body is probably subconsciously from my upbringing, and having watched so much media applaud or obsess with the female body. It’s ingrained that I would naturally be interested in the body, because that’s what it felt like people were interested about me when I was younger. Guys would say, “Oh, you have a nice ass,” or “Your boobs are too small.” It was always about the body. I don’t remember saying I wouldn’t go out with a guy because he didn’t have a six pack. But you know, at school, kids are cruel.
 
Originally a lot of my photography was of the male nude. I found some really old pictures I took of my first boyfriend when I was around 16, that continued in a diary form. I used to post some of them on Flickr, and that’s where it all started. People started asking me to do photography professionally.
 
 
When you do photograph the body, sometimes you zoom in so close into certain details – There’s a sense of childlike innocence, but it can also be a bit uncomfortable, grotesque even.
 
HW : I like things to be direct and I feel like when you have a tight crop, the message is clearer. I don’t find things very grotesque. The pictures I show I find to be very tame and cute. I have a tendency towards the grotesque, but I don’t show [them] because I don’t think people will respond very well to that. My level of grotesque, my grotesque-dar is very skewed. With my fashion work, I’m always so worried about who I’m photographing, I don’t want to show them in a bad light. I want to be sensitive to [that] person’s feelings. It does hold me back, because I do want to show people in their more true, grotesque light but Im still too conscious of myself and of others.
 
I have been experimenting for this show, taking very grotesque pictures of myself, but I couldn’t actually bring myself to print them or put them on the wall. It felt too invasive. But definitely, the images I like of other people’s work are quite grotesque and I envy those that have the [courage] to show things in their true grotesque light.
 



 
You also run an Instagram account documenting of photos of trash. What’s that about?
 
HW : I think fashion gives you a real need to, when you see that side of things, it makes you feel very privileged and gives you an empathy that needs to have an outlet. The ever-increasing worry about climate change and how we’re destroying the planet drew me to that. I wanted to protest with these images in a way, [and] just be aware of the issue.
 
 
I read that you collect vintage Issey Miyake and Jean Paul Gaultier. What is it about those designers that you like?
 
HW : I’ve been collecting [them] since I was 17 when eBay was amazing. I have a pretty damn good collection of about 30 pieces from [the] eBay era where you could pick up a full dress for 20, 40 pounds. I particularly love the Guest Artist Series [by] Issey Miyake when he collaborated with artists. And Jean Paul Gaultier, I find his clothes to be artwork. He’s also very obsessed with the body and his work is like wearable art.
 
Weirdly, I had a lot of years where I wore absolutely no fashion whatsoever. In my teens and early twenties, I was really into fashion as works of art and I used to spend a lot of time getting dressed and wearing crazy clothes. After about 21, and I left for university, I became brown mouse and didn’t spend any money on clothes. I spent everything on photography. I didn’t go shopping for years until I was about 28. I wasn’t interested in the way I looked and I didn’t want to stand out or look pretty. I didn’t want people to judge me for being a girl. People would always be like, “Oh, can you fix the music?” No one ever assumed that I was the photographer, so I wanted to be very serious and dress appropriately. For years I cut that side of myself out, but I’m back to it now. I’m getting all my Jean Paul Gaultier [and] weird stuff out and having a good time with [them] again.
 
 
What was the cause of this sudden change?
 
HW : There’s been such a big culture change. I was ashamed to be a woman when I was younger, I didn't think people would take me seriously and now I’m not ashamed to be a woman anymore. There’s been a huge change in society’s view of women and it’s not such a sin anymore to be a girl. When I was in my twenties, it felt shameful to be girly or wear pink. Now everybody’s much more girly-obsessed and it feels like I don’t have to be shy about being a girl anymore, coming to set wearing a skirt, looking like I give a shit. Why not.
 
 
Sins of a daughter is on view now through May 7 at Hannah Barry Gallery, London.


Spit, Pee, Cum & Blood: a Glimpse into Harley Weir’s Most Sinful Desires. By Elaine YJ Lee. Highsnobiety, April 18, 2022. 















19/07/2020

Queer Ecology







Ecology is a relatively recent science. The term was coined in 1866, by the German biologist Ernst Haeckel, barely 30 years after Darwin’s famous travels aboard the HMS Beagle. Ecology, like all sciences, is a product of its social world, but especially. But given its interest in complex, interactive systems, the science of ecology derived its systems of knowledge as much from politics, theories of international relations, and ethical philosophy as from its big sister biology.

Over the course of history, ecology has evolved along with other philosophical trends, or been used as a metaphor to political ends. In Metamorphosis by the Institute of Queer Ecology, the tools of ecology are queered and decolonized to expose the fractures of our current petro-capitalist world order so that we can reimagine new connections between epistemologies, species, and worlds. A collaborative, decentralized collective of artists, scientists, and activists who subversively frame themselves as an “institution,” the Institute of Queer Ecology uses exhibitions, art, and direct action to agitate for an inclusive, decolonial, multi-species future.

The consequences of the traditional Western notion of a “nature” apart from culture, becoming everyday clearer. And ecology’s potentials and limits in grappling with our vast interconnectedness is increasingly relevant. Today, we hear mostly about ecological destruction. About mass species die off. About the decimation of landscapes. About new microbes trying to kill us. As the climate crisis accelerates, it’s clear that we must challenge our assumptions.

The Institute of Queer Ecology is proposing a metamorphosis. In these videos, the lifecycle of holometabolous insects—bugs who undergo a “complete metamorphosis”—is proposed as a revolutionary paradigm for transforming ecology and capitalism. Queerness serves as a type of ecological visioning, a way of proposing an alternative, utopic world. Each video—featuring voiceovers from Mykki Blanco and Deli Girls’ Danny Orlowski—is a mini-manifesto, proposing new ways of becoming strange, becoming less human, to create a multispecies world in which we all might survive and thrive.

The Institute of Queer Ecology






Prelude.  Serotiny.

 Around 3.5 billion years ago life began. A single ancestor of the nearly trillion living species today bubbled up from a harsh and primordial earth. We are all and have always been, entangled. Each ecological disaster and each extinction, rather than an individual tragedy, is a collective loss and exposes the almost incomprehensibly enmeshed systems of power that rule our lives.

In this prologue to the Institute of Queer Ecology’s Metamorphosis series, an overview of the current ecological crisis is given with a voice-over by Danny Orlowski of the band Deli Girls.

The ongoing ecocide is intimately tied to colonial genocide. In Brazil, slash and burn fires decimate the Amazon rainforest many indigenous peoples call home to make room for cattle to be raised by laborers who work to produce money for their capitalist bosses. Climate change-induced forest fires are put out by prisoners caught in a system of ongoing slavery in California—unless you’re so well-off that your insurer guarantees you a privatized fire service.

Economic imbalances are creating a less and less habitable earth, while consolidating wealth for the top few. Industrial capitalism and colonialism are helped by and perpetrate near-willful extinctions. Climate control is preparing us for a new doomsday economy, where even a green response could be a capitalist or ecofascist wolf in environmentalist sheep’s clothing.

For an equitable, habitable world, we need to organize: not just for resilience, but for regeneration.






 Episode 1. Grub Economics.


Metamorphosis is a nature show that undoes assumptions about the world and our place in it. Treating humanity’s systems like little bugs, in Grub Economics, the Institute of Queer Ecology along with Mykki Blanco map a proposal for a post-human, post-fossil fuel future.

There is a myth that nature can always right itself to a state of equilibrium, that all slight deviations will eventually correct themselves back to the status quo. This misunderstanding of ecological interconnectedness has been warped by many, not just as it relates to the so-called environment, but even to the ends of “scientific” racism or classism.

These beliefs have relied on a half-reading of Darwin, whose evolutionary theories relied in no small part on a notion of constant competition. We need a new understanding of nature that would go beyond competition to recognize queer relations like symbiosis and co-evolution as necessary for collective survival. And, while this myth led early environmental movements to focus on a fabled balance, perhaps the only constant is change, even chaos.

While we talk often of evolution in ecosystems, we don’t talk so much of revolutions. But all revolutions—even human political ones—take place in the sphere of biology. What would today’s ecological revolution look like?

Currently, the global economic order is in a sort of larval stage. Like hungry caterpillars, capitalists unyieldingly extract and extract. They’re grubs thriving on a petromodernity that manufactures products known to be toxic while supporting a system that needs those toxic things, all the while perpetuating extreme economic stratification.

To cope with the danger of planet-warming greenhouse gas pollution of our extractive, capitalist world, some of the more privileged—primarily scientists and technocrats from the global north—have proposed large-scale geoengineering projects, like releasing massive amounts of sulfur dioxide, essentially intentional pollution, that would act as a shield to help cool the planet. Or, perhaps, like a smokescreen to prevent us from imagining other ways of changing our world, such as fundamentally rethinking the economic order, and liquidating assets to redistribute our resources to create something more just and altogether new.








Episode 2.  Liquidation.

Capitalism hides its shape from us, so let’s give it one. Perhaps of the caterpillar, that voracious larva that, like the extractivist or petro-capitalist, feeds endlessly. Of course, if they survive, caterpillars eventually become something else. They turn into a cocoon, then a pollinating butterfly. Today’s oligarchs would like to be able to live somewhere between the consumptive larval stage and the protective cocoon, an ideal limbo for them. They live in a separate world, barricaded by private police and militarized borders.


However, in a real cocoon, a radical, transformative process takes place: there is the liquidation of organs to clumps of cells that reorganize themselves, however, all matter is conserved, and some structures are too. Liquidation in the Pupal State, as described by the Institute of Queer Ecology along with Mykki Blanco, represents not erasure, but redistribution.

If extractive capitalism takes the shape of the caterpillar, then perhaps we can induce its inevitable liquidation, reformation, and metamorphosis so that our world might take a shape that is queerer and more equitable, for all species.










 Episode  3.  Emergence. 


In Emergence, the final chapter of the Institute of Queer Ecology’s Metamorphosis, Mykki Blanco guides us out of our straight, fossil-fuel soaked cocoon.

The mode of “reproduction” integral to cis-heterosexuality and the traditional family and thereby to capitalism is unsustainable. The biopolitical control exercised by capitalism’s investment in heteropatriarchy—by maintaining clear gender roles, clear family orders, limiting reproductive rights, and so on—only allows for the reproduction of the world in which we already live. It posits reproduction as a useful tool to regenerate its ideas and to generate laborers it sees as disposable. It limits the passing of knowledge, the building of kinships across traditional boundaries of age, geography, and kinship. It limits the imagination. But to build a new world, we must first imagine a way towards it. Queerness has long made families and shared knowledge in alternative ways. queerness introduces desire as a world-building tool.

Utopic thinking is not about queering capitalism but leveraging queerness to mutate capitalism, to dissolve it, . and transform it. Where petro-capitalism produces things to be disposed of—including human beings—a heliosocialist or hydrosocialist system would force us to move with earth systems—the sun, the water—to be in constant balance with the earth’s movements and the many species that inhabit the planet.

This is not opposed to “reproduction,” but opposition to the reproduction of the world as is, a world that limits desiring, imagining, connecting, learning, and growing. Similarly, indigenous philosophies—many of which have long grappled with the post-human, object-oriented, or ecocentric turns new to western thought for years—and struggles promote and promise anti-capitalist, anti-extractive alternatives. A queer utopia would be one of indigenous sovereignty.

Currently, we are reproducing for a world that cannot continue without end, a world that does not make space for genuine desire and that is not generable. Rather than reproducing, we might produce something altogether new.



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20/05/2020

JM Coetzee : The Jesus Trilogy, Growing Up with The Children's Encyclopedia, Photographs from Boyhood







Men and their desires. Do we really need more on the subject? It is ground that has been plowed so often, by Roth, Updike, and others who came of age during the sexual revolution and its aftermath. These writers practically exhausted the English language exploring every aspect of their desire: David Foster Wallace, back in 1997, famously described Updike as “a penis with a thesaurus.” Yet our understanding of male desire has changed since the heyday of the Great Male Narcissists, as Wallace called them. It is something more malevolent than we once thought and hence more mysterious, too—lying at the root of Harvey Weinstein’s crimes, to name a specific example, and of “toxic masculinity” more broadly. The pernicious influence of desire is now understood to be so widespread that Wallace himself has entered the pantheon of Great Male Narcissists.

Since the publication in 1999 of his novel Disgrace, desire has been an abiding preoccupation of the South African Nobel laureate J.M. Coetzee. Disgrace combines Coetzee’s earlier focus on apartheid, often filtered through the lens of dystopian allegory, with the story of a middle-aged professor in Cape Town who is shunned for preying on one of his students. The novels that followed increasingly revolved around a recurring figure: a reserved, pedantic man who is also full of hidden passion; a philosopher enslaved by his emotions. Sometimes the figure is purely fictional: The main character in Slow Man (2006) is an amputee who develops an “unsuitable passion” for his physical therapist, a married mother of three. Other times the figure is based on Coetzee himself: Youth (2002), the second in Coetzee’s trilogy of autobiographical novels, features a young Coetzee in search of the muse who will unleash the torrent of feelings dammed up within him; Summertime (2009), the third in the trilogy, is partly told from the fictionalized perspectives of the former objects of Coetzee’s desire, who return his affections by describing him as a “cold fish,” a “eunuch,” a “célibataire.”

Now in his late career, the 80-year-old Coetzee has completed another trilogy: The Childhood of Jesus (2013), The Schooldays of Jesus (2016), and the newly released The Death of Jesus. These elliptical, ruminative novels follow the adventures, such as they are, of a boy named David and his middle-aged caretaker, Simón, “a placid man, placid to a fault,” whose soul nevertheless secretly “aches with longing for it knows not what.” Over the course of three books, Simón mulls the great existential questions—about life and death, truth and fiction, right and wrong—but it is desire that is his intellectual lodestone, the riddle that might explain his restlessness, his unhappiness, his condition.

It might also offer him redemption. As the titles of these books suggest, Coetzee is working within a more spiritual dimension, concerned less with temporal matters than the judgment we might levy on our lives. In Coetzee’s moral matrix, desire is of a piece with our fallen nature, equal parts good and evil. It is the source from which so many of our instincts spring: to have and to hold; to love and to cherish; to wound, to dominate, to destroy.

The world in which the Jesus trilogy is set is a hazy, dreamlike version of our own. Its inhabitants arrive there by boat, across a sea that washes the past clean. The borders of this foreign country are unclear, its landscape arid. There are cities, but they feel etiolated, empty. There is a language (Spanish), but no overarching culture. There is a bureaucracy, too—fresh off the boat, David and Simón register with a relocation center in the city of Novilla—but where its authority comes from is a mystery. David and Simón have no memories of life before the crossing. The boy, who is only five, has lost his mother, about whom he recalls nothing. Simón has agreed to help him find her.

Is this the afterlife? A parallel universe? The future? The precise nature of this world is ambiguous, as is the identity of the two main characters. They are refugees of a kind, having left behind, as all emigrants do, the people they were in the old country. They also resemble survivors of some obliterating trauma, among the chosen few who have made the arduous journey to the promised land. Or they might be reincarnated souls, nagged by the feeling, as tantalizing as a phantom itch, that they were someone else in a previous life.

Though Novilla is a bleak and barren place, it is not inhospitable to these new arrivals. They find lodging in an apartment complex called the Blocks. Simón quickly finds work as a stevedore, hauling sacks of grain. The food is cheap and plentiful, even if it is bland, monotonous, mostly bread. The people are helpful and kind, even if they are a bit dull, a bit bloodless. No one goes hungry, no one lacks for shelter, no refugee is ever rejected, but something is missing, a certain spark. Is this a utopia or a dystopia? Coetzee appears to be suggesting that there is a fine line between the two.

The principal difference between this new world and the old, Simón learns, is that the people in Novilla have lost their interest in sex. “I don’t like it,” one woman tells Simón. “I don’t have an appetite for it.” Simón, who still carries the ways of the old world with him, is baffled. He still feels himself to be a man, with a man’s desires. “What are our appetites for if not to tell us what we need?” he asks. “If we had no appetites, no desires, how would we live?”

The thematic premise of the Jesus trilogy is actually outlined in a previous Coetzee book. Paul Rayment, the character in Slow Man who has lost a leg, has a reverie while lamenting the diminishment of his manhood: “A phrase from catechism class a half-century ago floats into his mind: There shall be no more man and woman, but … But what—what shall we be when we are beyond man and woman?” In the Christian afterlife, Rayment remembers, love will be pure, unblemished by sin. Is this a love we would recognize? Is this a love we would admire, a love that is shorn of earthly desire, that finds its expression in the beatific smile of the blessed?

Something like love plays a decisive role in Simón’s quest to find David’s mother. Like the other episodes in The Childhood of Jesus, the discovery of the mother happens suddenly and improbably; the narrative, like a bad dream, is composed of a string of non sequiturs. They see her on a tennis court, all dressed in white. Simón feels that she is dimly familiar, that he has met her before. She is Inés, a “thirty-year-old virgin.” Simón tells Inés that she is David’s mother. Though mother and child do not recognize each other, she agrees to take care of him. One of Simón’s neighbors in the Blocks is appalled that he would entrust David to a stranger’s care. “The moment I saw Inés, I knew,” Simón says, defending himself. “If we don’t trust the voice that speaks inside us, saying, This is the one! then there is nothing left to trust.”

This is the type of delusional thinking, his neighbor retorts, that results in “calamitous love affairs.… She is just a random woman on whom you have projected some private obsession of yours.” Whether our feelings are delusions or the sacred location where truth resides is a question that runs throughout these novels. David’s favorite book is a children’s version of Don Quixote, featuring the knight of the doleful countenance fighting the windmills he believes are giants. As Simón explains to David, Don Quixote “presents the world to us through two pairs of eyes”: the addled perspective of the knight and the sober perspective of his sidekick, Sancho Panza. Through this juxtaposition, we know that the old knight is crazy. Yet is Don Quixote any less noble, any less courageous, any less a knight, for being a fool? Love is like that: a hallucination that is overwhelmingly real.

Whatever feelings Simón might have for Inés, they are not reciprocated. (“What is the one theme that keeps recurring from book to book?” asks one of the women in Summertime. “It is that the woman doesn’t fall in love with the man.”) She is regally aloof, quick to irritation, and jealous of her son’s affections.

But the three of them end up becoming a family of sorts. There are heavy-handed hints that David is different from the other children, that he is special. He makes cryptic statements—“Yo soy la verdad, I am the truth”—that suggest he is indeed a Jesus-like figure, perhaps even the reincarnation of the savior himself. He is also, at times, utterly ordinary: a willful, dictatorial brat. The hope that one’s child is destined for greatness, the regular reminders that he is a child like any other—this dynamic is the alpha and omega of parenting. In David’s case, his willfulness gets him in trouble at school, and the authorities insist that he be transferred to an institution for wayward children. To rescue David from this awful fate, Inés and Simón abscond with the boy to another city, Estrella, the setting for the second book, The Schooldays of Jesus.

It is here that we witness the dark side of desire. David is enrolled in a school headed by a husband-and-wife team who teach their students the “dance of the universe,” a kind of numerological philosophy. The wife, Ana Magdalena, is beautiful, so beautiful that she inspires worship, as if she were a goddess. Simón admits that “he could spend hours gazing at her, rapt in admiration at the perfection she represents of a certain kind of creaturely form.” Yet it is not Simón’s role to play the lovesick suitor; that falls to Dmitri, a poor, disheveled man who hangs around the school. When the perfect body of Ana Magdalena is found strangled to death, it turns out that Dmitri was the killer—and also that he had been Ana Magdalena’s secret lover.

Unlike the other people in this universe, Dmitri and Ana Magdalena had a passion for each other. The murder is a crime of passion, a malignant outgrowth of Dmitri’s desire. “It came from his heart, where it had been lurking for a long time, waiting to strike like a snake,” Simón tells David. For his part, Dmitri says he was motivated by an impulse to “Show her who is master. Show her what love is really like.” He is contrite about the crime he has committed, but he is also unyielding in his belief in the truth of his emotions: “When it comes to life’s greatest choices, I follow my heart,” he says. “Why? Because the heart is always right and the head is always wrong.”

Simón is presented as Dmitri’s foil: cool to the point of coldness; rational to the point of sterility. He shares an affinity with Bolívar, the family’s aging dog: “Certainly he is in the latter phase of his life, the phase of decline. He has begun to put on weight; though he is an intact male, he seems to have lost interest in bitches.” Simón is horrified by Dmitri’s behavior but is also in awe of the depth of his feeling; in awe, too, of his openness to love and its life-upending torments. Dmitri says, “There is no escaping it, is there, Simón? No escaping the thunderbolt.” Simón doesn’t know how to respond: “When was he last hit by a thunderbolt? Not in this life.”

Dmitri returns to torture Simón further in The Death of Jesus, in which David, now 10 years old, comes down with a mysterious illness that confines him to a hospital bed. Dmitri says he is a reformed man, a Paul-like figure who has had his own road-to-Damascus conversion. He now claims to be David’s disciple, the leader of a group of acolytes who develop a cult around David and spread rumors of the supposed miracles he has performed. But Dmitri still preaches the gospel of passion, which Simón imagines going something like this: “Blessed be the passionate, for the record of their crimes shall be wiped clean.”

Lest we forget the nature of those crimes, there is one disturbing incident involving Bolívar that reveals the grisly consequences of a life ruled solely by animal desire. David insists that his parents bring him a pet lamb from the school to keep him company in the hospital. Bolívar wants to eat it, but David’s will prevails and the lamb is allowed to stay in a cage. While watching David, Inés falls asleep, and that’s when Bolívar strikes: “When she awakes at first light the cage is lying on its side and nothing is left of the lamb save its head and a bloody tangle of hide and limbs on the once clean floor.” (The idea that Simón and Bolívar are connected is strengthened by the fact that their names, put together, invoke the Simón Bolívar who liberated much of Latin America from the Spanish empire. Compared to their namesake, Coetzee’s Simón and Bolívar are rather apathetic, the point perhaps being that history in this nonhistorical world repeats itself as farce.)

Yet the passionless life, though safer, offers only a different, slower kind of death. As David deteriorates, Simón and Inés grow closer, but they remain fundamentally estranged:

‘’There are no easy words for what their relation has been: certainly not man and wife, nor brother and sister. Compañeros may come closest: as if, from their common purpose and common labour, there had grown up between the two of them a bond not of love but of duty and habit.’’

Simón, who has been careful not to let the flames of passion leap too high, ends the book alone: no child, no partner, not even the dog.

Where Coetzee comes down on the divide between passion and reason is difficult to say. He is both a roiling cauldron of emotion and the analytical, unblinking eye trained upon it. One senses a deep shame on his part, almost a revulsion at the way desire betrays what is exalted within us. In his conception, desire entails men behaving disgracefully, sometimes monstrously. And even when its effect is more benign, it involves a humiliating loss of autonomy. As one of the women in Summertime says, “Well, that is what you risk when you fall in love. You risk losing your dignity.”

But desire has a dignity of its own. It is our natural response to beauty, a beauty that is often invisible to the outside world. Who other people choose to love often surprises us: What does she see in him? we ask. Desire is not just a vehicle for lust but for tenderness, gratitude, and admiration. Simón is not in search of anything so crass as a liaison but a vessel “to pour whatever it is that pours out of me, sometimes as mere talk, sometimes as tears, sometimes in the form that I persist in calling loving care.” It is a moving thought, that we might have such a lot of care to give.

Perhaps, Coetzee suggests, desire is really the expression of some original lack, a bedrock dissatisfaction with the world. “Something is missing,” Simón says. “I know it should not be so, but it is. The life I have is not enough for me.” It is no coincidence that Simón and David are migrants, condemned to wander the earth forever as foreigners. What is missing from their lives, as well as from our own, was lost at some point in the passage to the present moment. “This place wrenches my heart,” says the Coetzee of Summertime, looking out as the sun sets over the karoo, an arid, desertlike region in South Africa. “It wrenched my heart when I was a child, and I have never been right since.”

Can another person fill the hole in our lives? In the books of J.M. Coetzee, as in the real world, desire usually leads to complications, disasters. There are few happy endings and a lot of pain, loneliness, frustration. If there is solace to be had, it lies in higher pursuits—in writing, for example, in the sublimating act that lifts even the lowest desires into the rarefied echelon of art. But what would we have to write about were it not for feelings like desire? Coetzee’s early work was so immersed in the political, but in the dusk of his career he has reoriented himself toward a more elemental subject: the longing for happiness, for wholeness, for life itself. Desire is the proof that we are alive; that we are, in both the best and worst senses of the word, human.


The Unsuitable Passions of J.M. Coetzee. By Ryu Spaeth.  The New Republic,   May 18, 2020




During a 1992 interview with Nobel Prize-winning novelist J.M. Coetzee, critic Richard Begam surfaced the well-worn issue of the death of the novel, positing that literature had “fallen into a debilitating narcissism” which produces works “of interest only to the academic” before asking after Coetzee’s thoughts. Notoriously taciturn in public and thoughtful in interviews, Coetzee suggested that the tightening bond between writers and the academy has indeed led to more esoteric forms of the novel, and with regard to himself: “Yes, I may indeed be cutting myself off, at least from today’s readers; nevertheless, what I am engaged in doing is more important than maintaining that contact.” Since the 1990s, it is tempting to see a correlation between increased academic interest in Coetzee’s works and his decreasing engagement with, and from, the public. Coetzee’s Nobel Prize in 2003 largely recognized him as the preeminent writer of the South African experience, for example, as we see in the powerful apartheid allegory Waiting for the Barbarians (1980). Disgrace (1999) grappled with the country’s uneasy transition to a post-apartheid state by reflecting on the career and disgrace of a middle-aged academic. The truth, however, is that by 2003 South Africa had receded into the rearview mirror and Coetzee’s new work, Elizabeth Costello, was positioned firmly on academic soil. This philosophical novel, featuring an eponymous academic protagonist touring the world delivering lectures on topics such as animal rights and renaissance humanism, set the tone for Coetzee’s writings in the 2000s, including the Jesus trilogy and its culminating installment, The Death of Jesus.

Elizabeth Costello anticipates the theological themes of the Jesus trilogy, especially in its final section, which features a quasi-allegorical (Elizabeth finds it “Kafkaesque”) rendition of purgatory, outside of recognizable time and space. Several of Coetzee’s later works insist on this engagement with the theological, especially as an antithesis to the rational ordering of life definitive of Enlightenment modernity (an ordering that Coetzee suggests cannot help but be exclusionary—of the animal, of the colonized, of the other). The Jesus novels perpetuate this theme but, even more so than the earlier works, resist the inclination to explain themselves. For instance, they never explain why the young Jesus figure is in fact called David. Critics have speculated that the trilogy is loosely based on the apocryphal gospels and their account of a reckless and petulant God-king in his nascent years, yet Coetzee’s abstraction fails to deliver a key that would unlock them. Indeed, if Elizabeth Costello was more explicitly a roman-à-clef—with the middle-aged Australian Elizabeth serving as avatar for the recently relocated Coetzee (who now resides in Adelaide)—the Jesus novels also play with the ideas of allegories and keys.

The trilogy takes place in a fictionalized Latin America where everyone speaks Spanish. In the first novel, The Childhood of Jesus, David arrives via boat at this purgatorial landscape with his adopted father, Simon. Simon, whose perspective is welded to the third-person narrator (we are constantly reminded of this in the second and third novels by the formulation “he, Simon,” which prevents the reader from being lured in by the neutral, omniscient voice), arranges their accommodation and registration in their new home Novilla (No-town). When asking for access to his room he makes the mistake, in Spanish (which fits incongruently into the English prose, breaking the illusion that what we are reading is a transliteration of the Spanish the characters must themselves be speaking), of asking for a llave universal, a universal key, instead of a Llave maestra. The benign but bemused bureaucrat responds: “Llave maestra. There is no such thing as a llave universal. If we had a llave universal all our troubles would be over.”

These troubles continue through the subsequent novels, which take place in Estrella (Star). From the range of critical responses to the The Death of Jesus, it seems fair to suggest that many had hoped for more by the time of this final installment, and Coetzee’s continued withholding of meaning right to the end has provoked a sense that this new novel of ideas might be lacking in novel ideas. By the time of The Death of Jesus, David is ten, and an accomplished dancer. At the start of the novel, we meet the forthright Dr. Julio Fabricante, the head of a local orphanage, who is keen to recruit David onto his football team. This sparks a continued engagement with the figure of the orphan (an oblique reference to David’s virgin birth, perhaps), a figure that fascinates the young boy’s adventurous and romantic imagination (his hero is that great adventurer/illusionist, Don Quixote). Whereas Simon “lives in the present like an ox,” the precocious David increasingly becomes prophet-like, drawing hordes of young acolytes to hear him tell stories. He tells of the adventures of Don Quixote, which feature enticing allusions, such as an episode with a burning bush that speaks to the Don. “Things don’t have to be true to be true,” David blurts out at one point.

Like The Childhood of Jesus’s universal key, David feels himself to be a “universal exception,” despite Simon’s protestations. “A universal exception is a contradiction in terms,” Simon asserts. “It makes no sense.” When David flees his adopted parents to join Fabricante’s troop of orphaned boys, a wider theme of exceptionality emerges: the figure of the orphan as precisely that of a universal exception in society (and, located outside the town, the orphanage as a site of exception). David takes on a sense of duty toward the orphans, marking another parallel with Coetzee’s interest in lost causes and forgotten others (the dying dogs in Disgrace are a prime example, and at a certain point David refuses to continue to eat meat). David’s illness is also exceptional, and it is never made clear precisely what ails him. While in the hospital, he is reacquainted with his devout follower, Dmitri, a convicted murderer who in the previous novel—The Schooldays of Jesus—committed the crime passionnel of killing Ana Magdalena, David’s lead instructor at the Academy of Dance. Simon is mortified but can do nothing. Dmitri assumes charge over the boy’s body when he dies, and purports to be the bearer of David’s final “message.” Toward the end, he writes to Simon: “I am sure you are aware how unimportant names are. I could just as well have been named Simon, you could just as well have been named Dmitri. And as for David, who cares now what his real name was.” Instead of nominative determinism Dmitri proposes a numerical determinism: “Number rules the universe—that, I can now divulge, was part of David’s message (but only part).” An orphan is thus one without a number, and indeed Simon takes pains to make sure David is not registered on the state census. This makes David exceptional, atypical because he is uncounted. But for Dmitri (and David himself) numbers are not circumscribed by the laws of logical sequence. On the one hand, David is uncounted, on the other hand, David is uncountable. All three novels are delicately poised on the pivot point between these two propositions.

Naming and numbering—and more broadly David’s education as a whole—trickle intricately in the form of the novel itself. The Death of Jesus is the shortest book in the trilogy, and the economy and simplicity of the overall plot (there are few turning points, denouements, and significant events) is incongruously juxtaposed by a precision at the level of the sentence. This is most marked by Simon’s occasional over-weighty parenting. Despite David’s peevishness, Simon’s corrections appear needlessly pedantic (a bit like David Lurie’s obsession with grammatical tense in Disgrace). As with the previous novels, there is something peculiarly moving about the affectless or neutral presentation of the lengthy dialogue scenes. By exploring the ontology of the question Coetzee invites a slow approach to reading:

      “But I don’t want to be this boy, Simon! In the next life I want to be me but I don’t want to be this boy. Can I do that?”

     “The rule says you do not have a choice. The rule says you have to be the one you are and no one else. But you have never obeyed rules, have you? So in the next life I am sure you will manage to be who you want to be. You just have to be strong and decisive about it. Who exactly is this boy whom you do not want to be?”

     “This boy.” He gestures toward his body, with its wasted legs.

By resisting excessive description and remaining at an arm’s length from his characters, Coetzee’s Kafka-like narration remains compelling; its failure to solicit a conventional emotional response that we associate with the novel genre is part of the drive. This distance not only fosters the philosophical tone of the dialogue but is key to the ideas and themes in the work—indeed, to the overall meaning of the novel itself. How seriously are we to take the seriousness Coetzee affords to his craft, the seriousness he affords to words, when these words never quite deliver? By refusing to add up to some take-home “message,” or some isolatable truth, the novels perform the very question that animates them: What does life add up to, in the end? What is the value of an individual life? And how do we measure it?

The two answers the trilogy presents lie in the difference between Simon and David, who, taken together, constitute the twin sides of Coetzee’s own authorship. Simon is coolly rational, recalling Coetzee’s origins as a computer programmer. David is an arch anti-rationalist following in the spirit of Elizabeth Costello and Coetzee’s many protagonists who choose the heart over the head. David represents that side of the author for whom reason is a self-enclosed system whose outputs merely imitate those biased and all-too-human inputs that determine any calculation. In The Death of Jesus, the work’s content, the story itself, seems to favor this latter model: We too ought to embrace David’s philosophy of life and disdain for arithmetic. The novel’s form, however, holds back and swaddles this option in a blanket of irony. “True reading,” Simon tells David, “means hearing what the book has to say and pondering it,” not merely turning printed signs into sounds and making up fantasies as we like. But what does this dialogical account of reading mean for us; that we ought to look beyond the referential, the literal, or that, as Simon asserts, we ought to register “the world as it really is”? Toward the end, Simon is gathering David’s things and finds the boy’s copy of Don Quixote, which contains a library slip in its back cover. The slip is addressed to the book’s young readers (but also to us, Coetzee’s readers), and asks: “What is the message of this book? What will you most of all remember of it?” David’s handwriting is absent from the list of responses. The novel hereby closes, leaving the choice between Simon’s reality and David’s fantasy held in abeyance.

All three Jesus novels are concerned with the life after death, but none more so than this final work. This life is one’s legacy, and it feels that by posing the problem of how to value, how to read, an individual’s life, Coetzee is also allegorizing once again the author’s life and the legacy that a writer, a storyteller, may leave behind. David ultimately fails to transcend the world, but the Jesus fictions maintain the idea that transcendence need not be a flight away from reality but something more like an uncountable, or unreadable, change within reality. After the boy’s death Simon poignantly tells Ines, David’s adopted mother: “The world may be as it was before, but it is also different. We must hold tight to that difference, you and I.” Holding tight to the difference is perhaps what Coetzee means by doing something more important than maintaining contact with “today’s readers.” Far from offering consolation or meaning, these works constitute a powerful allegory of a world bereft of meaning; of a world in mourning. This world is ours. One is reminded of Georges Bataille’s comment on the mendacity of the world: “Moreover, it is time in any case to oppose this mendacious world with the resources of an irony, a shrewdness, a serenity without illusions. If the world insists on blowing up, we may be the only ones to grant it the right to do so, while giving ourselves the right to have spoken in vain.” If the Jesus novels are vain, then they are triumphantly and defiantly so.

In some respects Coetzee’s Jesus enterprise is like the particle-spinning Large Hadron Collider. The novels are the product of a supreme intelligence, located far away from civilization and unencumbered by the petite histoires of life in the twenty-first century. They are made of elements whose genius remains invisible to the naked eye and whose conjunctions and combinations yield cosmic results. They open on to a black hole of meaning that will defy the academic critics who will now pour in to pigeonhole these works in terms of biopolitics or postsecularism or animal studies or affect theory. In a positivist age, these philosophical novels don’t quite fit, just as David never really fits. Yet like David they burn brightly across the sky, never quite entering the celestial sphere while holding tight to the possibility of a minimal difference in our own. Far from fleeing the world in the name of an intellectual-fictional experiment, Coetzee makes the world, and the banality of its tragedies, inescapable. Unlike, for example, Cormac McCarthy’s The Road, which uses the figure of the child to embody the moral conscience of a fallen world, David functions as a looking glass for a world whose moral conscience seems bereft, platitudinous, and vapid. The novel both mocks our clumsy association of childhood and innocence as well as celebrates it; David’s ethical virtue is to present a challenge to virtue’s inevitable ossification in the form of cliché. So what does this book teach us? The importance of compassion, the power of fantasy, the illusion of neat origins and firm endings. Probably all this and more, but Coetzee’s art is in the probably.

J.M. Coetzee’s The Death of Jesus. By Marc Farrant.  Music and Literature , May 5, 2020.








The Death of Jesus, the third of JM Coetzee’s ‘Jesus’ books, continues the story of David, or at least, Simón’s story of David, some years after the second volume ends. Like its antecedents, the novel pursues various questions of ethics, life and death, the role of education and socialisation, and the purpose and consequence of storytelling.

In the first book, The Childhood of Jesus (2013), Coetzee relates the story of how a middle-aged man cares for a young boy and tries to find his mother. Simón, the man, meets David, the boy, on a ship transporting passengers from one life to another. The new life in which the pair find themselves is expressed in Spanish, which they must learn upon their arrival. The first book explores the quest for a mother for David, whom they find in Inés, a woman who is at first ambivalent about mothering the boy, but then becomes fiercely protective of him when she disagrees with the measures the bureaucratic authorities of Novilla insist on imposing on David’s education.

In The Schooldays of Jesus (2016), the elective family have relocated from Novilla to Estrella, and the question of young David’s education becomes even more central than in the first book. His exceptionalism is constantly remarked upon by the various adults who encounter the child, from the stevedores on the docks of Novilla, through the three sisters who own the farm outside Estrella, where Simón and Inés have taken refuge from government scrutiny, and even to the Arroyos, in whose academy David becomes a pupil.

The Death of Jesus (2019) picks up the story of Simón, David and Inés four years after the tragic events at the Arroyos’ academy of dance, in which one of David’s teachers was killed and he suffered the trauma of discovering her body. Now aged ten, David has become an adept player of amateur football, and because of his skill, moves from the reconstituted Arroyo academy to an institution for orphans run by an ‘Educador’, Dr Julio Fabricante.

As the title makes clear, this book tells the story of the end of David’s life in the Spanish world in which he seemed not only extraordinary, but thoroughly alien. At one point Simón reminds the boy, ‘Your mother and I have indulged you as no normal child is indulged, because we recognise that you are exceptional’, and it is perhaps this very treatment inside the elective family that may explain David’s odd behaviour. As Alyosha, the teaching assistant from the Arroyo academy, puts it, David is ‘a child with strange ideas and fantastic stories, a child who has never been schooled, never been tamed, who is afraid of no one, certainly not his teachers, who is as beautiful as a girl yet has a flair for football’. And as a cypher, with an odd, atypical relationship to numbers and language, to human relations and to the world, David becomes the focus of various hopes and aspirations among those around him.

But the reasons the various adults think David exceptional vary and are often at odds with one another. Dr Fabricante recognises David’s exceptional talent at football and, we are led to believe, wants to protect him from what he sees as abuse suffered at the hands of the people David insists are not his parents. Dmitri, the museum attendant who killed David’s dance teacher Ana Magdalena in the second book, and who has ‘come back now like a malign spirit to haunt the child’, wants some sort of spiritual connection with David to satisfy his complex scheme of punishment and forgiveness. He, Dmitri, believes ‘young David is not like us. He comes from another world, maybe even another star.’

Amid this muddle of beliefs about his exceptionality, David himself confronts those around him with profound questions, often relying on the why-regress to interrogate the insecure foundations on which the world relies for certainty in the face of questions about existence and ethics. Simón’s antagonist Dmitri expresses it best when he suggests ‘your son is not asking you to parse sentences. He is asking why he is here. For what purpose. To what end. He is demanding an answer to the great mystery that confronts us all, down to the humblest microbe.’ And, as he suggests, David ‘learned long ago that you don’t have answers to anything.’

David draws comfort from the copy of Don Quixote Simón procured from the Novilla public library, which he has brought with him to Estrella, and through all three of the ‘Jesus’ books. But now, instead of using it ‘to practise his Spanish reading, because like all of us, he had to master his Spanish ABC’, Simón tells the adults and children gathered at David’s hospital bed, ‘He read the book so many times that it sank into his memory. Don Quixote became part of him. Through his voice the book began to speak itself.’ Simón’s understanding of how the Cervantes novel has influenced David reflects the ways in which all the ‘Jesus’ books are concerned with intertextuality and storytelling.

The life of David shares resemblances with the life and death of Jesus, which echoes and mirroring Coetzee teases his readers into exploring. Are Simón and Inés in some senses like Joseph and Mary? Is Dmitri like Saul become Paul? Or are those the very sorts of projections that David himself becomes enthralled to when he conflates Quixote and Cervantes, when he struggles to separate the real from the fictional, the world from how it is imagined? There are no easy answers in The Death of Jesus, but the exploration is part of the book’s compelling beauty.

These questions are not new territory for Coetzee, who has confronted philosophical questions through his novels and across his entire body of work by exploring the relationship between fiction and philosophy. In a conversation between Simón and David in the heart of The Death of Jesus, the relationship between thought and imagination is explored explicitly when the man tells the boy: ‘Philosophy tells us when there is nothing more to say. Philosophy tells us when to sit with our mind still and our mouths shut. No more questions, no more answers.’ But of course, into that silence comes story: ‘Don Quixote is allowed to cross the seas and come here, but he has to do so in a book […] He cannot appear to us as flesh and blood.’

The prose, as always with Coetzee, is masterful, spare and beautiful, and The Death of Jesus can be read as an example of what Edward Said termed ‘late style’: work that has ‘the power to render disenchantment and pleasure without resolving the contradiction between them’. In this book Coetzee returns not only to the motifs and thematic concerns of the earlier ‘Jesus’ books, but to matters that have concerned his practice as a writer and thinker for four decades. The idea of expressing an alternate world in Spanish first occurs in In the Heart of the Country (1977). The complex relations of fatherhood and loss are touchingly and intimately examined in The Master of Petersburg (1994). Confrontations with illness, age and death will be familiar for readers of Age of Iron (1990), and how desire complicates such confrontations were explored in Slow Man (2005). Questions of guilt, complicity, implication and suffering were there in Dusklands (1974) and Waiting for the Barbarians (1980). And Coetzee’s interrogation of the nature and function, as well as the consequences, of storytelling in making sense of the world became explicit in Foe (1986) and Diary of a Bad Year (2007).

David, like his predecessor in Life & Times of Michael K (1983), is the cypher through which we are encouraged to confront ourselves with questions of ethics and morality, while simultaneously being lost in the power of story. As David himself is swept up in his reading and misreading of Don Quixote (or at least the children’s edition of Cervantes’s novel to which he has access), so we are swept up in the adventures and misadventures of Simón and Inés and David. What Simón promises David on his sick-bed—

‘’I will simply tell your story, as far as I know it, without trying to understand it, from the day I met you. I will tell about the boat that brought us here, and how you and I went looking for Inés and found her. I will tell how you went to school in Novilla, and how you were transferred to the school for delinquent children, and how you escaped, and how we all then came to Estrella. I will tell how you went to señor Arroyo’s academy and were the best of all dancers.’’

—becomes the novels in the ‘Jesus’ cycle we have read. And just as Simón suggests to David that ‘when you danced you opened people’s eyes to things they had not seen before. So your dancing qualifies as a good deed’, so Coetzee’s novels have opened our eyes, and therefore qualify as his good deed.

The Death of Jesus is a fine addition to Coetzee’s oeuvre, stimulating and beautifully written, for as Dmitri writes to Simón, ‘What we hunger for is not bread […] but the word, the fiery word that will reveal why we are here.’ In reading this book, we are reminded again of the importance of asking this question and others like it, of ourselves, and of one another.


JM Coetzee’s ‘late style’—Angelo Fick reviews The Death of Jesus, the ‘masterful, spare and beautiful’ final book of the Jesus trilogy. The Johannesburg Review of Books, April 20, 2020. 






J. M. Coetzee, one of the most critically acclaimed authors of his era, will visit the University of Chicago for an Oct. 9 talk—the former faculty member’s first return to campus since receiving the Nobel Prize in 2003.

Previously a professor in UChicago’s Committee on Social Thought, Coetzee will speak at 5 p.m. at Regenstein Library as part of a lecture series organized by the Neubauer Collegium. Coetzee will read a selection of his unpublished work during the lecture and discussion, which will be webcast live.

“I think when John was here, he found the intellectual life of this university special,” said Prof. Jonathan Lear, the John U. Nef Distinguished Service Professor in the Committee on Social Thought. “I think he was glad to be here while he was here. I do think it’s right to think of him as coming back to a place that, for a while, worked as his intellectual home.”

Added Coetzee, who taught at UChicago from 1996 to 2003: “The Committee seemed to me, at its best, to be an ideal intellectual community. During my years on the Committee, I made a number of deep and lasting friendships.”

Lear and Coetzee grew close at UChicago, where they co-taught classes on subjects such as Tolstoy’s War and Peace and Plato’s Phaedrus. The two had dinner the night before Coetzee won the Nobel, and still plan a weeklong trip together almost every summer. Last year, Coetzee was invited to a lecture series for the Neubauer Collegium, which Lear leads as the Roman Family Director.

The event represents a rare public appearance in the United States by the famously private Coetzee, a South African native who now resides in Australia.

The 78-year-old Coetzee, who was the first two-time winner of the Man Booker Prize, may be best known for the novels Waiting for the Barbarians (1980), Life & Times of Michael K (1983) and Disgrace (1999). When it awarded Coetzee the Nobel Prize, the Swedish Academy lauded him as “a scrupulous doubter, ruthless in his criticism of the cruel rationalism and cosmetic morality of Western civilization.”

“My own view is that he’s the greatest living writer of English prose,” said Robert Pippin, the Evelyn Stefansson Nef Distinguished Service Professor in the Committee on Social Thought. “He’s an intensely serious thinker and writer. Some people, I think, are surprised that there is such a quiet intensity about him.”

Pippin was responsible for bringing the author to the University more than two decades ago. As chair of the Committee on Social Thought, Pippin invited Coetzee to give a lecture before eventually convincing him to become a visiting professor in 1996. Coetzee was later named a distinguished service professor and was part of the UChicago faculty until 2003.

That partnership, Pippin said, was a fruitful one for both Coetzee and the University. Coetzee brought unique credentials not only as a writer and essayist, but also as a scholar well-versed in literature across numerous languages.

Lear remembered Coetzee as a dedicated teacher who was always diligent in providing feedback and evaluations to his students: “He wanted to talk with them about ideas and books and how writing works.”

Of Coetzee’s upcoming visit, Lear said: “We have the opportunity to share the company of one of the great thinkers, writers, novelists of our time. What I’m interested in is: Can we give John a format in which to express himself? One that will provoke others in our community to think and to engage in conversation with him?”

Nobel-winning author J. M. Coetzee to give talk at UChicago. By Jack Chan.  UChicago News, October 5, 2018.


Nobel Prize-winning author J. M. Coetzee, who served as a faculty member at the University of Chicago's Committee on Social Thought from 1998 to 2003, returned to campus to deliver a Neubauer Collegium Director's Lecture on "Growing Up with The Children's Encyclopedia."


October 31, 2018.










On January 11, on a sweltering summer afternoon in Cape Town, J.M. Coetzee gave a rare public reading in the home town he left, somewhat precipitously, fifteen years ago to take up an academic post in Adelaide, South Australia. The reading took place at the Irma Stern Museum in the city’s southern suburbs, currently hosting an exhibition of arresting Coetzee juvenilia: “Photographs from Boyhood,” a recently discovered trove that the author took in the mid-Fifties when he was a schoolboy growing up in these suburbs. In his wry and unsparing way, Coetzee projected a series of these images onto a screen and read related extracts from his 1997 fictionalized memoir Boyhood (he calls the genre “autre-biography,” because it always involves making an artifact of one’s life for an “other”).

In Boyhood and its sequels, Youth and Summertime, Coetzee uses family photographs as aides-memoire but makes no mention of his own adolescent passion for taking them. How fascinating it was, then, to see the images made in boyhood in dialogue with the words of an older man looking back, and to imagine the way the ethics and aesthetics of the former might have forged the latter; also, to consider what the image reveals that the word cannot, and vice-versa.

The author himself was no help. “It’s not my job to join up the dots,” he says, at the conclusion of an interview published on the occasion of the exhibition, which is curated by Hermann Wittenberg and Farzanah Badsha. He ended his presentation at the Irma Stern Museum at precisely thirty minutes, leaving no room for questions and an audience hankering—as happens with Coetzee—for more.

Before J.M. Coetzee was the writer who would go on to win the Booker and Nobel Prizes, he was an avid photographer: the home darkroom he set up is reconstructed in the exhibition, with its original machinery and empty canisters, and some records from his school photography club are on display. These reveal that although his entries placed second and third in a competition, he scored poorly for “neatness and general work”: eight out of twenty-five and four out of twenty-five, respectively, for his two entries. This is no surprise to anyone acquainted with the talented, disaffected anti-hero of Boyhood.

Coetzee was the owner, first, of a mail-order “spy camera” and then of a 35 mm Wega, an Italian Leica knockoff. He snuck shots of his mother sleeping and the cassocked masters at his Catholic school; he photographed hijinks in the classroom and events on the sportsfield, the people and the landscapes of his adolescence. He liked to document his own working process—as a reader, as a photographer, as a thinker, as a cricketer even—and one of the exhibition’s gifts is an itemized photograph of the library that the sixteen-year-old Coetzee created with his pocket money. “Some of these books left a mark on me,” he writes in the caption. “Eliot’s poems, War and Peace. Others I never succeeded in wading through: The Imitation of Christ. Self-improvement via Everyman’s Library and the Penguin Classics.”




Like the protagonist of Boyhood, the boy-photographer is self-conscious and earnest, although the tentative smile in one of a quartet of proto-selfies (taken with a timer or a clicker) suggests a willingness to please that is absent from the book or the author’s later public image. “Who is this person?” the adult Coetzee asks of these images of his younger self, in the accompanying caption. “First steps towards surprising and uncovering his soul.” It is as if the adult author is giving us a clue to his creativity: that his work ever since has been an endeavor to “surprise” and to “uncover” his soul.

What does it mean to surprise a soul? Most of the images are unplanned and spontaneous, in the manner of Cartier-Bresson, whom Coetzee imitated, as he says, in his attempt to be “present at the moment when truth revealed itself, a moment which one half discovered but also half created.” The young photographer is trying to surprise his subjects by catching them unawares, but also, one senses, to surprise himself with a fearlessness that is lacking in the written account of his boyhood. He was attracted to photography because it carried “considerable cultural cachet” in the Fifties, but also, he says, because it was “a manly activity, in contrast to such effeminate activities as composing poetry or playing the piano.”

Interestingly, the other photographer in Coetzee’s family—there is an image of her with her own box-brownie—was his mother, Vera, whose excessive solicitousness he describes with cool contempt in Boyhood. His feckless father, Jack, is captured being hectored by his mother’s Aunt Annie, and Coetzee gives us a passage from Boyhood as the caption: “He has never worked out the position of his father in the household. In fact, it is not obvious to him by what right his father is there at all.”

In Boyhood, he is similarly cool about his younger brother David, who is “at most a nervous, wishy-washy imitation” of the book’s protagonist. But one of the most beautiful images in the exhibition is of David riding a bicycle, very much à la Cartier-Bresson. The image was a technical experiment in low angles and shutter speed, but it seems to capture both a moment of the younger brother’s childish joy and an older brother’s capacity for empathy, despite the author of Boyhood’s later protestations to the contrary. Perhaps this is fanciful. And I wonder whether we, the viewers, are not projecting our need to humanize one of the world’s greatest authors if we find such empathy in the many images of his mother, stout in middle age by the time her son took up the camera, vulnerable rather than doughty.

In an early essay of his titled “Photographs of South Africa,” Coetzee warns us not to read old photographs this way, and he questions whether “looks have the power to communicate feelings,” chiding the white editors of a book of nineteenth-century South African photographs for interpreting the look of a black girl selling brooms as “wistful.” He concedes that “this is by no means to argue that all faces from the past must be as inscrutable as the faces of Martians,” but anyone who has read Coetzee’s fiction will know the stock he puts in inscrutability—his own and that of his characters. It is precisely in his refusal of easy empathy that he has forged the counter-intuitive ethic of his work, and we might find the roots of this in the true marvel of the exhibition: the few images he made of black South Africans, which have a sense of drama, of “surprise” and of “uncovering,” that is absent elsewhere in his photographs.

In some respects, these images suggest the path that Coetzee might have taken—in a venerable South African tradition—as a social documentarian like, for example, David Goldblatt. The quick image Coetzee captures of a policeman stopping black workers on a suburban “Paradise Road” finds its punctum in the quiet resistance of a uniformed maid’s folded arms. And there are fluid, free-wheeling images of the workers on the beloved Coetzee family farm, deep in the hinterland, which he visited every Christmas. When one looks at the image of a white child weaving easily between farmhands aiming guns and cleaning offal, one is struck by how a photograph can suggest correspondences and relationships in a manner quite different from the written word.

The critic Maya Jaggi noted in the Financial Times that “the unexpected intimacy” of these images “appears to flout the spirit of rules that came to my mind from Boyhood”: the protagonist averting his eyes when passing a “colored” maid in the passage; his mother contemplating smashing a teacup after a “colored” man has drunk from it. (In South Africa, “colored” was the apartheid designation for people of mixed race, or descendants of the Khoisan people.) Coetzee’s photographs of these people—in service to him and his family, to be sure—suggest the way the rigid lines of racial separation can be crossed with a camera; or the way, perhaps, that the camera can expose the arbitrariness of such boundaries.





But the camera is also a tool of immense power, particularly in southern Africa, where photographs were used to classify people in colonial times and then to control them: your passbook photo was a ticket to work, or to jail, depending on whether it had been endorsed. By day, the protagonist of Boyhood must avert his eyes when passing the maid in the passage, but at night, the photographer of “Photographs from Boyhood” can watch her, freely, as she dances the “tiekiedraai” (an Afrikaans folkdance) on New Year’s Eve. The Wega in his hand not only gives him permission: it renders visible the power his society actually vests in him. He can choose whether to look, or not, with or without the consent of the people he is looking at. In a white world so blinkered by apartheid, though, the wonder of these images is that this particular young man chose to look at all.

And yet, Coetzee tells us in his exhibition interview, such a project was not to his liking. He gave up photography, he says, because of a lack of empathy and curiosity: “I was never open enough to the world, particularly to other people’s experience. I was too wrapped up in myself. Which is not unusual at that age.”

In what measure was it adolescence that stifled his curiosity, and in what measure was it apartheid? At the Irma Stern Museum, while projecting a photograph of two of the farm laborers, Coetzee read the following passage about the men from Boyhood:

He burns with curiosity about the lives they live. Do they wear vests and underpants like white people? Do they each have a bed? Do they sleep naked or in their work clothes or do they have pyjamas? Do they eat proper meals, sitting at table with knives and forks?

He has no way of answering these questions, for he is discouraged from visiting their houses. It would be rude, he is told—rude because Ros and Freek would find it embarrassing.

The young photographer does not transgress this boundary with his camera, he tells us in Boyhood, because this was a limit to which he also adhered. But one must take Coetzee’s protestations of a later lack of curiosity with a pinch of salt, for one senses, looking at some these images, that he came to understand the way storytelling was driven by not being allowed across a threshold, by turning in on oneself and imagining what might lurk beyond it.

And so, in “Photographs from Boyhood” he gives us Ros and Freek, in an arresting sequence “on Strandfontein beach—their first ever sight of the sea.” The images conjure Waiting for Godot (which Coetzee would not yet, by then, have read), a Giacometti sculpture, a Steinbeck story. Here we have, at last, Coetzee the novelist rather than the documentarian, and there is glory in the way these images make fiction: the uneasy presence of two dark beings etched into the blanched landscape of sand and sea; the questions that cannot be answered. Ros and Freek lived and worked on a farm in the Karoo region, hundreds of miles away. How did they get to Cape Town, to the sea, these two middle-aged men in their ill-fitting Sunday suits, trying to light their pipes in a south-easterly gale? And what was Coetzee doing there, with them? His caption: “What they thought of it, I will never know.”

Coetzee’s Boyhood Photographs. By  Mark Gevisser.  The New York Review of Books ,  January 19, 2018.